Sunday, September 13, 2009

This evening

was significant to me in a number of ways.
I learned two interesting things about myself.

1: I have trust issues
2: I can be stupid
Let me explain...

1: ok ever since I was about 5 or so I've been a really anti-touch person. I don't like hugs or really any physical contact from most people. Then I was wondering why I didn't mind being piled 4 people on a love-seat this evening with my friends. I sort of realized over the course of the evening that I associate physical contact with trust. Shortly after this I realized how few people I trust and it made me a little sad.

2: I don't mean I've done something terrible. My friend was talking about how a person he met in rez chugged a cup of soap. I laughed and said that was dumb but really really funny and that guy is cool. Later on, he bought dish soap and I grabbed it and pretended to take a gulp. He laughed and basically said I wasn't cool enough. I just looked at him, grabbed the bottle, and took a big gulp. Then I kinda threw up.
See? I'm really dumb! This is awesome for me because I'm usually altogether too sensible and I kinda proved to myself that I can just do it. I guess this is a bit of a weird thing, and I apologise for all you who didn't want to hear it, but I'm frikken proud of it. A friend of mine says that you need to make mistakes that you know are mistakes sometimes because it's good for you. He whores himself out, and I drink soap.
Btw, never do it. So gross. I can't get the taste out of my mouth!!!

We watched the movie "I love you, man" and I loved it. It proves my point about how difficult it is to make friends. It's just really impossible. Then on the way home I was saying how it's worse for those of us who won't resort to getter drunk to make friends. My theory is that if they won't like me sober, they most certainly won't like me drunk. I'm likely a jerk when I'm wasted.

Ick, i'm gonna eat another peppermint to get rid of the soap. Hehe.

1 comment:

  1. Does this mean you trust us? That would be nice ^-^
    sometimes, though, you know, it is a good thing to be cautious about who you trust. Do you really NEED to trust the people in your life? Maybe they just really don't deserve it and you haven't met all the right people yet.
    I still can't believe you took the soap. Blech.
    And totally true about the friends thing. They need to like you for what you are normally, not what you are hyped up.
    Question: In your case, would it be safe to say Don't drink coffee at parties? Is it the equivalent of alcohol in social lubrication for you? ;)