Saturday, June 25, 2011

This evening, for the first time in my life, I went out for purely social time with co-workers. I'm really proud of the progress I've made this summer with making friends at the factory. I don't really understand how taking one little white pill every morning makes it possible for me to talk to people and make friends like a normal human. I don't feel like it's not me, though. It's like the drugs have changed everyone else, not me. The people aren't scary any more. They don't think I'm weird any more. They don't judge me as much any more.

We went to McCabe's and had some drinks and we all work at 9:30 tomorrow morning. I probably won't be hungover. First Jaggerbomb today! I think the caffeine is doing much worse things to me than the alcohol. Red Bull makes my tumbly so angry!

The one girl who was gonna come out with us wasn't feeling well, so she went home. She is kind of like me in that she has a difficult time with people. I am really glad that we've become friends, because she doesn't seem to have a lot of other people in her life. It's kind of just her and her boyfriend, which I don't think is a good place to be in if you run into trouble.

This evening is a happy one for me. I can do it. I can make friends. All that remains to be seen is whether I can get up to go to work in 4 hours...

Friday, June 17, 2011

Peanut butter is a meal, right? I'm too lazy to put anything together right now, and roomie is asleep so I don't want to make too much noise.

You know that weird stage with work friends where you're not sure if you're real friends or not? I'm entering that phase with two of the girls from the factory. It's awkward because no one wants to be like "Let's hang out for reals!", but it's exciting because I'm actually making social progress! I'm so proud. Tomorrow we are ordering pizza in for ourselves at lunch and having a nice 'party'. We're probably going out drinking next weekend, too.

Speaking of social progress, I have a new stalker! Yaaaay! This one started hitting on me at work, got shot down, got fired two days ago, showed up on the bus home tonight and chatted at me the whole way down town. I was so distracted that I got on the wrong bus and had to do some interesting manoeuvres to get back on my bus. I missed my stop once I was on the right bus, too. On the bright side, if anyone really was trying to find out where I lived they would be super confused by all that.

I'm really happy with how well I've done making friends at this job. It makes me feel successful somehow.

One thing I like about myself is that I still find drinking out of my Winnie-the-Pooh cup really comforting. The text on it says "the more it snows tiddely-pom, the more it goes tiddely-pom". I never understood it as a kid, and I still don't, but it has a nice ring to it and the pictures are nice.

Tomorrow the plan is to go to Walmart, Bulk Barn, and No Frills to get some of my life back together. If I could also find time to clean my room, that would be splendid.

I am going to throw this stupid cat straight out the door. Shut up you stupid beastie!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Lazing on a Sunny Afternoon

I'm lying on Johnson Green at the University, with my legs in the sun and my face in the shade. I'm wearing shorts for the first time in a long time, and hoping to get some sort of tan in the little time I have before I get the bus to work. The grass smells terrific from being cut recently. It's sunny and not too hot, and I'm pretty sure this is the ultimate nice day. I think I'm really actually making friends at work now. I'm happy about it. I'm also doing my best to be honest about who and what I am with them, instead of saying what I think they want to hear. Sometimes I'm not even sure of the difference between those two, but I feel good about trying. I'm gonna just lie in the sun now, and smell the good things of summer.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Places I Want to Visit

The Dead Sea
The Mongolian Desert
The Andes
Democratic Republic of the Congo
St. Petersburg, Russia
The Himalayas
The Bay of Fundy
Central Australia
Fiordland National Park, New Zealand
Gros Morne National Park, Canada
(All Canadian National Parks)
Easter Island
Christmas Island

I am open to suggestions.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Day off!

Today I didn't have work or school! It's great! I stayed up till 6:30 in the morning playing Heroes of Might and Magic V with my Pauvre Kyle and then slept till noon and now I'm just kicking around the house until my mother drives me back to Guelph. Tonight Vee and her mister and Calvin and I are all gonna go out to the Mongolian Grill for supper! It will be so yummy!

I guess it's partially because of the weather that I'm in such a glorious mood. Yesterday was so beautiful and pleasant! My father and I called up friends and cousins and went to play beach volleyball at the Conestogo Community Centre. Chocolate milk and watermelon on the front lawn afterward. I really enjoy my cousins' company. We all just sit around and chat and giggle and I feel like a normal person. It's satisfying; it's surreal.

Next week will be the kick-off of a shiny new podcast: The Mildly Entertaining Show with T and B, otherwise referred to as the MES. Links to the RSS and (eventually) the iTunes download will be provided soon! It will be an approximately weekly look into our lives and thoughts and will feature some awesome discussions about THINGS THAT YOU LIKE! You should be as excited as I am :D

T and I had an interesting chat this weekend on the importance of names, and the psychology of them. I am big on the importance of names, which is why I have so many names for people. The name I use to refer to someone denotes how I am feeling about them at the time, because to me a name encapsulates my perception of them as a being. I am going to use Vanessa as an example because I have lots of names for her, and because I don't think she will mind. Here is a guide to what I'm thinking when I use one of her many names!
Vee: She is my good buddy ol' pal. We're comfortable hanging out, we have the same interests, we don't take stuff to seriously but we can tell each other what we're thinking.
Vanessa: She's my goofy, crazy room mate who is always up to hilarious hijinks. She says thoroughly inappropriate things about cripples and embarrasses herself while entertaining all the rest of us.
Van: She existed more in high school. Van is polite and shy and generally goes along with the crowd. She listens way more than she talks, and is off daydreaming for 90% of the conversation.
Vaness: Is takin' care of business! Going running, doing dishes, paying bills, and generally being thoroughly useful. Vaness is cool because she can deal with stressful situations and is good at solving problems and organizing things.
Do you see how I mean? People's names mean something about them, but they also mean something about the person using them. I coloured them because colours are fun! Also, because like the different parts of people, colours can all be really cool while being really different.

(Hope you don't mind my shocking exposé of you here, buddy! You're the best!)

I'm gonna go outside and try to get some sunshines! Hurrah!