Of blogging and hope!
I really am happy that a specific person has decided to resurrect her blog.
And although this morning in about an hour and a half I have my chemistry midterm, I feel hopeful. Not sure about what. About getting through this whole university ordeal. I've realized it actually can be done. Once I finish this coming week (of death) it will be the week off and I will be in FLORIDA learning how to sail!
After that it's just the tail end of Feb, all of March, and a bit of April and I'm DONE for a long time!
Maybe the weather is helping too. It's been very sunny this week, and getting gradually milder. I can't wait for spring. Spring is always sold as a revival too.
I've been talking to God a lot lately too. He's so calming and it's so good to actually tell someone what's going on in my mind without them thinking I'm out of it. Or maybe He does think I'm crazy.... well we all know I didn't make me like this.
I have mentioned that I'm going to Rwanda again right? I'm so excited about that. Some of the people I'm going with have added me on facebook. The team leader knows my oldest brother, so that's cool. The other one has a master's degree in education and is a hardcore long distance runner. They both seem really cool. Once again, though, I'm the youngest person on the team. The other time, it didn't matter as much. Most of the people were enough older than me that I could use my "Charm Adults Instantly" feature, and we got on splendidly. With these people it's different. They're older than me, yes, but only about 5 or 6 years. As pathetic as it might sound, I really want them to like me, and I know for a fact I'm not good at being personable. I'm not worried about fundraising or the trip itself. Just getting along with these people. Will it be an issue when they find out I'm so anti-religious?
I don't know. I'm trying not to stress about it.
As is though, I feel like life will be sunshiney for a while now. All I have to do in te immediate future is pass this exam....