I should start making these into movies

My dreams, that is.
When I have them, which is not frequent, they are extremely vivid. This one I actually totally believed, which weirded me out.

So, my dream:

I couldn't sleep. I was tossing and turning. My blanket was too hot, but I can never sleep without it. Eventually I just got up. Someone texted me and asked to hang out, but I had to say no because I had to go get something somewhere. I was driving back from the place on a road that was like the one to Grand Bend, but I had the sensation I always have when driving home from Wellesley. I always feel like I'm going to be lost because I'm certain I'll miss a turn in the dark. There was a sense of a storm in the air. Maybe it was windy, but it was still warm. I was speeding by a considerable margin. Suddenly I saw a road and thought it was the turn I wanted. I tried to make the turn but I was going far to fast and as I whipped the car around it skidded into a tree/oncoming vehicle. I saw all this from an exterior perspective. I saw myself outside of the car and I was freaking out. I knew Ben was going to KILL me. The car looked like a crumpled up piece of paper. I asked the guy who had helped me out of my car (although I don't remember that part specifically) if he thought I could drive it home. He said something about the chassy and that no, I couldn't. I had known it was wishful thinking anyway. I called my dad eventually. He said that I would have to pay for all of it and he asked me if I had been speeding. I said no. I got home somehow and went pack to bed. I didn't want to wake up because if i did I would have to worry about all this. How was I going to pay that kind of money? Ben was still going to kill me... At least I have a job... Do I need to go to work at some point? Maybe they'll let you call in sick because of the accident. What day is it? ... Thursday. What time? I don't know. What time did you get home from that incident? Wait, Thursday? I was going to hang out with Vanessa on Thursday. I did hang out with Vee, and Deanna for that matter. Then I came home and.... fell asleep. That was a dream, wasn't it...
Thank goodness.

I wonder what I did to my subconcious to make it do that to me. It was very unpleasant.

It may have scared me enough to make me not speed as much. One has no idea how scary car crashes are until one is in a screeching, creaking, crumpling car.

Oh well. I really don't appreciate dreaming, to tell the truth. I feel like if my body has to shut up for a few hours, the least my mind can do is piss off as well. Also, I think they are indicators of subconcious perceptions, motives, or ideas. I am a firm believer in ignoring my subconcious.

Then again, anyone wishing to analyze this dream may go right ahead.

Conversation

It's amazing how just talking to someone can make time pass quickly and pleasantly even in unpleasant situations.

Last night at work my foreperson but me on sorting duty, which means we had to go through the pet food and pick out all the pieces that weren't supposed to be there. It's a horrible job because you end up just standing around for 8 hours. You feet get tired and it's hard to stay awake.
Anyway, so I was working with the smiley guy. About an hour in he asks about how I hurt my hand (I need to wear a wrist brace at work) and we got to talking.
For a while we talked about animals and stuff, and then we talked about politics, and a bunch of other stuff in between.

When your mind is caught up in conversation, you don't remember that your feet are sore or that you're crazy sleepy. I realized last night that while I enjoy listening to people talk, I don't as much like to contribute. I would be happy to have conversations where all that is expected of me is strict attention, and no contribution (not always, of course, but some). Even if what they're saying isn't altogether engaging, I like to pay attention to how they form phrases or communicate their ideas. I love to watch facial expressions and mannerisms and try to figure out what the person is trying to get across with those particular gestures. I like to guess at what is behind a person's intonation.

It also helps when the guy talking to you is so... smiley! ;) Seriously, he's got these lovely sparkly eyes and just smiles a lot which makes his eyes sparklier. Makes me happy. Oh, and I'm not creepy for noticing his eyes. Everyone pays attention to this sort of thing, but apparently if we mention that a person has a really pleasant trait we suddenly "like" them. I am not a ditzy 15 year old going on about "crushes". I just find that his smileyness is catching and it's hard not to smile when someone smiles at you.

It also is very likely that the extremely sore throat I have is from shouted conversation all night. It's hard to get past the earplugs and factory noise. Either that or a specific philandering whore I know gave me mono (from a shared drink! no make outs! I swear!)

New

I did something I was meaning to do for a while. I went and searched out some new good music.
After a while, even the Beatles, Jack Johnson, and the Decemberists need an airing out.

So here are the new additions to my library, all of which I paid for!!!

The album "Who Do You Think You Are" by Canadian duo Dala. I really like the 2-part harmony thing they have going. My fave song thus far is "Hockey Sweater".

"St. Francis" and "New Years" by Toronto band Ohbijou. I heard the latter song on the Vinyl Cafe this morning and really liked it. I looked up the other one on youtube. I like the lead singer's voice. It's very pretty and unexpected.

"The Past and Pending" by the Shins. I just found 3 songs by this band on my iTunes and LOVED them so I poked around on youtube and found another one that I really liked.

"Fire On The Mountain" by Asa. I actually knew of her before because the BBC did a write up on her and I dloaded her song "Jailer" and I loved it. She's got a really beautiful, unique voice. I think she's from Malawi... Anyway, it's really catchy.

I got "Career Suicide" by the Cliks and "Nuit Sans Lune" by Richard Séguin for free off iTunes because they're the "feature of the week" or something. I like them both, surprisingly. I'm now going to get all of the weekly features.

"Her Morning Elegance" by Oren Lavie was suggested to me by a friend, so I looked it up on youtube and the music video was brilliant. So I downloaded it and I like it. If you're interested in the music video...

Anyway, if you're looking for some nice indie/folk types music I think these are all really pleasant

So Michael Jackson appears to be dead.
I don't much care, but that makes me sad in a diff sense. How does one screw oneself up that much? I'm sure he was a lovely person underneath all the surgery and glam and such. Maybe he wasn't though.

But may he rest in peace either way.

How I wish
How I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimmin' in a fish bowl
Year after year.
Runnin' over the same old ground
What have we found?
The same old fears
How I wish you were here.

I'll light the fire
You place the flowers in the vase
That you bought today

Well it's been a long time, a long time now
Since I've seen you smile

Look who's laughing now that you've
Wasted
How many years and
You've barely even tasted
Anything remotely close to
Everything you've boasted about
Look who's crying now.

There is gold across the river
But I don't want none
I would rather be dry than held up by a golden gun saying
Work more
Earn more
Live more
Have more fun

Twilight

I finished reading it yesterday, because someone said I can't judge it until I've read it.

I found little good in it. Bella has 0 personality and 2 character traits: clumsiness (which is waaaay over the top) and inexplicable mood swings (kiss me! no, piss off! no, marry me! no, i'm gonna slap you! honestly, she is just angry for no reason)

I hate the words 'smolder' and 'grimace' now.

A friend showed me this tonight and I thought some others might find it entertaining. I especially enjoyed that last bit 'Duskiness'.

What I really didn't appreciate, which has been pointed out by critics over and over, is that Bella allows this guy to totally push her around and manipulate her. That's an unhealthy precedent for the tweens reading it even if she is a pathetic, whiny, angry, incredibly stupid weiner. A hott guy should still be completely denied if he messes with your mind like that, watches you while you sleep, and throws temper tantrums.

I think it's interesting that this was written by a Mormon woman. I don't know Stephanie Meyer in any way, but I know Mormon culture does have a lot of male dominance issues. This could be why Edward Cullen is such a douche and Bella seems to be ok with it.

I did think that Meyer's conception of the vampire was more easily acceptable in the book than in the movie. I had an easier time ignoring my "IT SHOULD NOT SPARKLE" reflex.

As for the writing itself, it was nothing exceptional either way. It was like a 12th grade creative writing assignment. If this had been a high schooler's summative project for an english class, it would have been very acceptable. As an international bestseller with a movie deal and 3 sequels, it was not. The adjectives were appalling in a very funny way. Congrats, Ms. Meyer, you know how to use a thesaurus.

I will not argue with it, though. I'm not a writer of fiction myself, and it's difficult to come up with an alternative to reality that people will appreciate. It was a valiant attempt. I think what the author needed was a better editor or a writing coach to help her refine her ideas and words. Oh, and a plot introduced before page 372 would have been nice....

I watched Indy Jones 4 tonight.

Oh.my.gosh.
It was sooo dumb. A spacheship? Really? Aliens? I never likes the Indiana Jones movies, but this was a blow to the franchise industry. Just 'ouch' overall. I will say it was fun to see the High Chancellor from V for Vendetta as an insane old hippie. Hehe.

I also want to add that I love guitars, friends with musical skills, and campfires. I like Jason Mraz a little. He's too popular for me to love, but good enough for me to respect.
Anyway, I might sleep some. I might not.